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kepthimhuman» Birthdate/Age: April 1982/32
» Characters Played: N/A
» Re-App Status: N/A
CHARACTER FACTS
» Name: Neal Cassidy (aka Baelfire)
» Canon: Once Upon A Time
» Reference:
Here» Canon Point: Season 3 episode 15
» Gender: Male
» Age: Actual approximately 300/apparent age mid-to-late 30s
CHARACTER INTERPRETATION
» Appearance: He appears to be in his mid-to-late thirties. He's of average height for a human male and a healthy weight. He has dark brown hair with a strand of grey here and there, and brown eyes. He dresses for the occasion, but generally he wears comfortable, casual clothes: jeans, tees, hoodies.
» Suitability: N/A
» Orientation: Heterosexual. Canonically he has had two known relationships, both with women, and he has a child with one of them.
» Personality: The main aspects of Neal's personality stem from his abandonment issues. He's never really had a family, so it's the one thing he's wanted for his whole life. The fact that he himself was abandoned has given him some guilt over doing the same thing to Emma, and this guilt got worse once he realized he also abandoned the son he never knew about. This has motivated many of the things he has done in the time since then, attempting to assuage this guilt and to be there like he should have from the start. His sparse childhood, followed by a life of moving from place to place and his subsequent years of avoiding being found by his father have taught him how to hide and how to make do with what's available.
He's determined not to make the same mistakes his father did. He sees magic as the source of all the problems between him and his father, and dislikes what he sees as his father's excessive use of it. The aspects of the island that might be construed as magical, such as the collars that can't be removed, will make him uncomfortable at first, but once he realizes that there's really no magic to it, he'll get used to it. His dislike and distrust of magic has lessened some after his reunion with his father, and after he's used a little of it himself. He's still cautious, but he's not as opposed to it as he used to be. Using magic to get back to his son, and then later to bring his father back to life, have softened his opinion.
He's essentially a good man, he just sometimes has a problem with doing the right thing. When it comes right down to it, for a family member, he will do anything within his power. If there's someone he thinks he can trust, he will defend them no matter what, and once someone loses his trust, he has a hard time trusting them again. His arrival itself on the island won't phase him much; he's used to traveling between worlds, and to arriving in unknown worlds. It's the nature of the island, the fact that he is now essentially compelled to do something or there will be consequences, that will bother him. He doesn't like feeling he's being controlled, manipulated, or used. In the end, though, he will get used to that too.
Everything he does is for family. The biggest decisions he has made in his life have been influenced by his desire for family, even as a child. He searched out the bean that caused him to end up in the land without magic because that was the only way to restore his father to himself, which was the most important thing. He took being left by his father so hard because his father was the only family he had left. Despite the estrangement, his disappointment in who his father had become, and his desire to have nothing to do with the man who broke his promise and abandoned him, when that man was threatened he didn't hesitate to do what was necessary to allow him to stay alive. When he had finally found himself able to forgive his father for what had happened, he wasn't able to accept his father's death, which led him to ignore warnings and the sensible route he would normally have taken and stop at nothing to get his father back, even at the cost of his own life.
He has felt guilt over what he did to Emma ever since he did it. It's why he did what he could to make sure she was taken care of (by arranging for her to get the car and the money). He still hadn't forgiven himself for it the next time he saw her, and understands that it might be hard for her to forgive him. He never actually asks for her forgiveness, and he may not even think he deserves it. This guilt is the reason he didn't come to Storybrooke when he had the chance. While he still loves her, and wants the chance for them to be a family, he eventually realizes that they are a family no matter what. In the end, he wants Emma to live her life, even if it isn't a life with him in it.
Hook started out as something akin to family, a father figure when he didn't have one, although he wouldn't have put it in terms like that because he was unaware of the connection between them. When he discovered the role Hook had played in the dissolution of his family, it didn't matter that Hook wanted him to stay. Hook was the reason he had no family anymore. After the events in New York, Hook became a threat to the family he had left, and this was only made worse when Hook began pursuing Emma as well. Over time, he saw that Hook cared for his family as much as he did, and when the family was in trouble, he found himself relying on Hook to help save them. He doesn't see Hook as a threat to his family anymore. Instead he's the man who “looked after” him for awhile, and he wishes he could have the chance to mend their relationship.
Ultimately the decisions he makes are tied into his desire to be a better father to Henry than his own father was to him. While he goes to Storybrooke because his father's life is in danger, he stays there for a chance to get to know Henry. When he finds out that Emma, and especially Henry, are in Neverland, he puts aside his own personal feelings about the place to find a way back there, to help bring Henry home. Family is more important to him than his own safety. He has a certain amount of sadness to find that Henry doesn't remember him, but can take solace in the fact that at least Henry will know about his heroic actions.
When it comes to keeping anyone he considers family safe, he is willing to make the ultimate sacrifice.
He keeps mostly to himself, stemming from his desire not to draw attention to himself. When he meets someone new, he's friendly and polite, but reveals only as much information as he has to. The fewer questions about his past, the better. His daily routine consists mostly of going between whatever job he has at the moment and his apartment. He doesn't have many close friends, just acquaintances from his job or the stores he frequents. Even though he has settled down now, he still lives with the anticipation that he'll need to pick up everything and move on to somewhere new.
» Re-App Changes: N/A
SAMPLES
At least one sample MUST demonstrate your character's feelings about or reactions to sex! If this is a re-app, samples should reflect changes covered in the Re-App section above and demonstrate their awareness if they retain memories. The Sample Prompts can be found at:
http://amatmods.dreamwidth.org/23598.html » First Person Sample Choice (First-person prompt two):
[The video screen turns on to reveal a new, but friendly, face.] Um. Hello. I've been to a few new places in my lifetime, but I can't say any of them have been like this. Apparently this isn't some sort of afterlife, so there's a little comfort in that, I guess.
[This really isn't anybody else's business, Neal.] Anyway. I'm wondering. I know there are some sort of merchants around, and I'm sure I'll be visiting them all at some point. What I'm looking for right now, and hopefully someone can help me, is art supplies. Drawing supplies, specifically. Even just regular paper and pencil will do, if that's what's available. Thanks.
» Third Person Sample Choice (Third-person prompt three): He doesn't know how he didn't notice it, but the collar around his neck has been slowly tightening for days. Soon he won't be able to breathe. Part of him hadn't wanted to believe what he'd been told was true (a collar that chokes you to death if you don't have sex can't really exist, can it?), but that part had turned out to be wrong.
Now he has no choice. He has to find a way to loosen this collar. Which leaves him with only one option. He has to find a partner. The problem with this is that he has little experience in doing so. He doesn't know how to just go somewhere and pick someone up. He's never felt the desire to do so, and even now it's not how he would prefer it. He'd much rather get to know someone first.
Maybe there is a way. A way that doesn't take too much time, of course, because he doesn't have much of that, but a way to get to know a little about someone before just jumping right in. A way that has sort of worked for him in the past. With Emma, at least. Plus it might help him get used to the idea.
He puts on his nicest clothes and heads into the nearest bar. He looks around until a woman catches his interest, then puts on a friendly smile and approaches her. “Hi. Can I buy you a drink?”
